Do You Want To Smell My Candles?

I go to bed early, mostly because I have nothing else to do. Also because I get up really early for work. When my phone beeped at 8:30 I was already in bed, but I read it anyway. It was from The Friend. I almost want to rename him now, since The Non Boy Friend is so out of my life The Friend doesn't make sense. I guess he can stay The Friend until he deserves another name.

The Friend was a little drunk, and his messages were cute, flirty and funny. He wanted to go to Wendy's but couldn't drive, so he asked me if I wanted to make bad choices. I asked how a bacon burger could ever be a bad choice, and he explained that he was the bad choice. I laughed and said yes, I'll be right there! I got out of bed and headed to go pick him up, no make up, sweat pants and a hoodie. He got in the car and we headed to Wendy's. He wanted to eat in the restaurant so we went in. I always am very relaxed around him. I never feel stupid or judged. I have fun, and laugh, and he laughs too. We ate and got back in the car. Since we were just a minute from the lagoon I wanted to go down to the water. It was a clear night, and the ocean under the stars is absolutely fantastic.

We pulled into a spot on the lagoon and hung out for a bit. He is so easy to talk to and be around. He kissed me and I kissed him back. I had made a decision not to spend the night with him, ever again, but he wasn't making it easy. Thankfully someone parked right beside us so we left. As I pulled into his condo parking lot I stopped by his door, far away front he parking lot. He asked if I wanted to come in and smell his candles and cuddle. How could I not say yes to that? We went upstairs and laid on his bed. His candles did smell pretty good. I fell asleep in his arms for an hour or so and woke up when he kissed my on the forehead. I told him I was going home, he got up to walk me to the door and kiss me good bye. He said he'd talk to me soon, and I believe him. Of all the guys I know I trust him the most. He isn't fake, he does the things he says he will. He may not want to be my boy friend, but he doesn't pretend to want to be either.

So to answer one of my past questions: Am I only attracted to unavailable men? Yes. But I never regret anything that made me smile.

Oops, I Did It Again...

Thursday night after teaching my class I was heading home when I got a text message from The Friend. What?? I haven't heard from him in a couple weeks, nor had I messaged him, or thought of him. He invited me over to watch a movie, and i jumped at the opportunity. He's really nice, fun, makes me feel like he gives a crap, and I was curious to see his new condo.

He gives me the tour and his condo is GORGEOUS! Great furniture, no clutter, really quiet. I'm immediately relaxed. As he's making us drinks I pick out the Blu Ray. I chose Top Gun. That movie is fantastic, and being as we've both seen it a million times I knew we wouldn't have to pay attention to it too much. We sit on the couch and he is so easy to be around! This irritates me because I know what ever there is between us will never go public. He really values his friendship with the non bf, and I really don't see him ever telling him. That makes me his dirty little secret.

Two drinks later and the movie is over. He grabs me a bottle of Gatorade and we go to his bed room. Super comfy bed, perfect temperature, just the right amount of light. It's almost like I'm in heaven, but it's real. He sets the alarm so I'll make it to work on time then wraps his arms around me. Best. Sleep. Ever.

In the morning he gets out of bed with me, gets me another Gatorade, tells me to have a nice day and kisses me good bye. What do I do with him? Tell him I'm into him? Tell him I want to see where this could go? Just enjoy the time I do spend with him? Discuss, post thoughts, and if you know who he is, see what you can find out for me.